sugarcane in the easy morning

I can say that i love saturday's with nothing to do, my saturday afternoon i spent outside trying to help steven fix my car, trying is the key word, and yes i was freezing my butt off, but i look back and its one of the best afternoons i had in awhile, even though it was filled with frustration. So results of the afternoon were that i now have a new battery, new spark plugs, new air filter, and we put more oil in the car, but it still isnt running :( I am 2 midterms and 1 final away from being halfway done with senior year, and 2 months till im 18, its super exciteing but scary at the same time, but i know what im doing at least, yay! God is incredible! and im so incredibly happy and i cant explain exactly why, im at complete and utter peace, and it is incredible. night my loves

Someday it will bring me back to you

Sunday, sometimes i hate them, like today, i didnt go to church something i usually am a very big fan of, i slept and shoveled and then went to work after my lazy afternoon, thats what this weekend was full of. which is nice because next weekend will be very full, im excited for that
ok update on the rest of my life
Yesterday, i got a letter from my aunt, and my inheritance from my grandpa who died 10 years ago, it has me thinking about where i was 10 years ago and just how my life is completely differant now, and it makes me really miss him even though i didnt have that deep of a relationship with him, he is helpng to make me into the person i will be another 5 years down the road i will look back at my college experience and know it would have been really tough without his help, i just wish he could see who i am today. so im finishing my application to new paltz this week, i went through this whole time of doubting every decision i thought i had made, no more doubting. I applied to camp!!! YAY! Hopefully i will be spending my summer at the greatest place on this earth, and my second home, with al the people i love sooooo much, doing what i love and being surrounded by My God! you have no idea how happy that makes me, its happiness almost to the point of tears. Im starting to miss people, and giving up others, i've been feeling a little helpless, but its changing. I complicate things far to often, and stress myself out, thats not good. i just need to calm down. Things are going to be great because im not the one planing them, they are already planned. the other night i was looking at pictures of bry, and i miss him, part of me is gone, and i think its just now hitting me, i feel like i need all these people around me and im not sure why like i need their emotional suppport, its not even like im feeling emotionally weak.....its confusing. i know just what i need i just dont know how to find it anymore. Next week is excel, im excited, i need that, I need time with my dave zirilli and everyone else and i need time with morgan, i feel like i need to much, i dont know
so work
i really like it these days but just not the whole part of going to work, well school tomorrow and babysitting, and another week of being super busy..........

Fridays and Things

I am loving things right now, and i can say i have never felt this loved in my life, and so i say thank you to everyone that is around me. Im debating a bunch of plans right now for my life that all have to same end goal its just the same, its just debateing how to get there is the question........Oh well, i guess ill figure it out somehow. Now off to fulfill part of the plans for me life, just little everyday ones but they all add up to something big one day.....