woohooooooooo

Tomorrow, i officially start classes, well i started today my online class and it is great, it seems pretty easy so far! I also get to see dominic tomorrow, when i thought i wouldnt till thursday! and Im crazy excited! did i mention ive been looking for schools and applying and all that shiznit, it is full of paperwork, and online paper work and remembering so many passwords, of course i never can write any of them down. And I love Mamma Mia! and Im so excited for fall! its so exciting! Fall is like my third favorite season! hahahahaha I miss my kelly boys, one in particular, brendan of course! He is my favorite! so my work schedule should be great for this year well at least this week its great! now its off to work

fast forward >>

i would seriously love to fast forward the next week and it to be next thursday already!!! Im ready to be in school and just having my boy back, and to be done housesitting. Im tired, and feeling over worked, and ready for sleep.

bit of a breakdown

I hate being alone! I hate that i know what i want i just dont know how to get it. I love someone. My best friend is leaving this week, and i wont get to say goodbye. I wont spend time with my mom till friday. I am still house sitting. I miss my bed. I miss my room. I miss hugs. I miss my mom and dave. I have a youth leaders meeting this wednesday. Im actually excited about that. I need some serious time to think and pray, i feel like my life is getting serious and i need to make some decisions.

summertime in the afternoon

i love the sunshine and the pool, and wearing cloths that arent yours and that smell

like the place you want to be. its the perfect day, well it could be better

not gunna lie, but its pretty close. I have found the place im pretty sure

i neve want to leave, and its wonderful. And im not living in between real life and

my getaway, Reality is my getaway.

Housesitting

BIGGGGGGG NEWS!!!! well there really isnt any, but im house sitting and bored..........and i hate being alone more than anything in the world............and i just wish i had a hug and kiss goodnight and my i love you ritual from the fam, when they are all in my wonderful home sleeping it up. Oh well im trying not to dwell on how awfully lonely i am. I have a wonderful dog here that follows me,its cute, its makes me realized how much i want a cute little dog.

Joy

I've been laughing more, and its the best feeling in the world.......I have no deadlines or time limits i am living under, or living between And it is freeing. I was Listening to Jason Mraz this week and Remedy is a few favorite "When I fall in love I take my time There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why" That is how im feeling about life! and I guess my love too. I've started listening to "Lesbian Music" for my favorite Kelly Brothers, who secretly or not so secretly wish me and my sisters were lesbians......hahahaha. This week is my vacation week, even though im not really leaving home, I am house sitting Friday for two weeks! My "Vacation" is as follows

Wednesday- O.A.R and Matt Nathanson :) with Tabatha, Morgan, and Dominic, and hanging out with the boyfriend before :)

Thursday- Beach with the sibs except Malik and maybe the bestie

Friday- House sitting, and going to see A Fragile Tomorrow :)

Saturday- Hippie Fest! with christine and morgs

Sunday- a day at home!!!!

So thats how things are going and im happy beyond belief.

My MOM'S ENGAGED!!!!!!! IF I HAVN'T ADDED THAT BEFORE!!!!!!

I was talking to Dave when he was picking me up from work, and He told me he loved how i have been laughing recently. He told me it was so deep and contagious and hysterical, It made me so happy. Also he told me i had found my match, the person that fit me perfectly, and he was happy for me. Its so wonderful to know that i have people who love me and are backing me up with every insignificant step i take, because its those staps that add up to be the big one's. I thank God every day for my mom and everything she is to me, and I thank God for all the other people he has brought me as well. I guess at times i take that for granted. Its been a wonderful summer!!!! much better than i thought it would be :)

life life life life life life life life

wow...........i feel like things have been crazy but not at the same time! My mommy is engaged...........its super exciting! ive been really tired......oh well thats what i get for working and staying up way to late.....im excited for this week and i think it will be so much fun :) Beach and hanging out with old friends.....its good...and hanging out with my boy :) i miss my bestie though ill see him in a week......I got a laptop today it makes me happy!