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CAN THIS WHOLE BEING A ROCKSTAR THING END SO YOU CAN COME HOME TO ME! but its ok I dont want you to not be my crazy passionate drummer. I miss you. I love you.

End. Of. Story.

seven

and verdict for seven months later, i still get butterflies

ahhhhhh

SO Im nervous and im not sure why. I cant get through this day without God and its been awhile since i've said that and that seriously crushes me. I realive how so far i am from really where i want to be. I remember a time where spirituality was my number one, and not its not and i need to fix it. I know for most people that might be really really stupid. But i feel like a better person. I NEED TO BE A BETTER PERSON. I need a fresh start. I went to church yesterday the first time since thanksgiving. and the sermon was about looking back but looking forward. and how its today that you need to make your changes not tomorrow, because tomorrow never comes, it is always today! and i want to be the person who my sister is proud of. I want to be an example. I want to be like Jesus. I want to love! thats where I am today. I cant get through today alone.....its hard and I dont like it anymore. why cant i just wake up one day and everything is the way i want it to be. Im tired, but not really. I guess im just tired on not having everyone i love be with me! I feel like im about to start this crazy new adventure, and i can't wait. everything is new and its a bit scary but i think it will be life changing and amazing!

CRAZY

CRAZY SHIZ HAS GONE DOWN!!!!! life as i know it could be changing ridiculously very soon :) BUT ITS GOOD!!!!! AHHHH God is good!!!!!