I can BREATH!

March 30th

My deadline to make the changes i need to is April 1st! the day i truely start my new life regimen. 1 more day of being the person that isn't really me. I give myself 2 days to make certain changes because its hard as hell. Today I am hurting, Thursday I start healing. I want to breath in relief and its slow. I am ready to be truly happy again.

life

I'm ready for a breath of fresh air. I'm ready to wake up one day and truly be excited for that day, and I don't see that happening anytime soon. This is problematic for me. I'm ready for sunshine, and to be done with this semester. I'm ready to start some sort of schedule that doesn't require me to run around and feel like my head it cut off. I need air. I need to run, and run and run. I want to be chased though. I want to feel like the greatest thing ever, because I am. I am ready for someone to see all the incredible things about me, and for someone to encourage me to follow my dreams. I'm sick of being put last. I'm ready to feel Jesus close to me. I'm ready for friends that encourage each other. I'm ready for my life to be clean again. I'm ready to be transparent again. Im ready to embrace the crazy, amazing, talented side of myself. The side that wants to change the world, and loves the people around her, and the person who attracts good people to herself. I'm ready for new friends. I'm ready for my new outlook on life. I'm ready for a new chapter to begin.

ready

ready for life and everything it plans on gifting me with

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Tomorrow my baby sister grows up!

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4 lousy fun filled days ahead

wednesday brings lots of work, the gym and class and party

Thursday brings lots of work gym class cleaning and shopping and church

friday brings my baby sister growing up, and work and gym

sat brings work and fun this and packing and gym

SUNDAY brings my birthday! My FLight! My love!

bad days

I hate mondays I hated today! 5 days!

:)

I hate rain! I didnt go to the gym yesterday and im disappointed in myself but Ill get over it, and drag my butt to the gym this morning before work! Today I am mending friendships because i believe its the right thing to do! for this i am proud of myself. My life is far to short to be mad or upset or whatever by something. So It started last night fixing these stupid issues i have with people and it will continue into today :) Im trying to work on feeling loved.

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Monday!!!!!!!!

One more awful intro to music class!

Sunday!

It's a sunday, and I will go to church, do some homework, study with sharon, I have two midterms this week. Im ready for spring break! 13 days, 9 more days of classes, 10 more days of work, 2 birthdays, 2 more days to hang out with Jackie on a thursday, 2 more paychecks, 14 more days at the gym.

I haven't seen the man i love in a month, but for once i'm not freaking out. I guess i am more sure of the permanent state of this relationship. And i feel a more sense of entirety. It's a beautiful thing. But again how can i not be completely ok with the fact that yes we didn't talk today, be he is touring with the indigo girls and playing to thousands every night and making his dreams come through. He loves me and no questioning is involved. And I get to see his beautiful self in 13 days!