Friday, July 23, 2010
newness
so I bought a car yesterday.....well i put the down payment on it, ill finish buying and pick it up monday. Kinda feels strange to me.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
days like today
So today is a day i need to be reminded I am perfectly fine, maybe not perfectly but im GOOD............ I talked to my daddy today :) and as much as sometimes he pisses me off he is still my dad, and i love him, he brings me some serenity, because somehow we are alike...... I talked to my miss mary today too, and i love her as well, and she is just like morg.....and i need my fam because one day they might be all i have. I need to be grateful for what i have you know. Some days i worry that im not doing the right thing, or that maybe my life might be falling apart, but its not, God has a plan......He constantly restores my life and brings me back to the right place. and I need to stop freaking out over stupid shit........Things always happen at the right time.....ugh! I love my life, i just am in a funk this week, but tomorrow things effing change Im ending my funk!
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
God is good! He never ceases to amaze me, even though i really screw up and lose sight of that, God waits around for me to some back because he know i will. This amazes me, because everyone else i know hates putting up with that.... That is why he is the greatest ever. I look around at all this bad that is happening in the world and I am comepletely taken care of. I really have nothing i worry about. Yeah sure i get stressed and freak out but i dont need to. God has everything taken care of, He already knows the outcome. What would i do if i had that power, well i wouldnt need god but them where is my life? in all my indecision and unknowing there are a few things i know
1. There is a God
2. He loves me more than anything
3. He WILL take care of me always
4. Everything works out great in the end.
1. There is a God
2. He loves me more than anything
3. He WILL take care of me always
4. Everything works out great in the end.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
story.....installment uno
This story does not begin with a "Once Upon A Time.." for this will happen, it is a reflection to the future. Emma-Lea is her name, and she is a walking contradiction. Em finds happyness is solitude, and fear in being with someone forever. She finds colors to be the greatest, but she choses to wear black most. Sunshine was her favorite, but it was night that thrilled her. She doesn't believe in love, but holds out on finding the right person. Em is the light and the dark, the joyful and moody, the wild and tentative. This is where our story begins. Em, full of life, but searching for herself, because she knows she doesn't know herself.
We find her stepping out of her 1968 VW Buggie, into the dreariest of days. Days like this were Em's favorite. They brought her back to reality, and helped Em not take advantage of the small things in life, such as the sunshine. She believed a persons soul was what truely made the person. Others would view her as being so full of life and practically perfect, while she knew she was far from that she knew she was missing something. Although Em knew that she had something so much of the world around her was missing. Em regularly had men hitting on her and confessing their love, for she had this magnetic personality that attracted people to her. But Em knew that none of these were right for her, it all would have been to perfect and she had seen where so called perfection could lead you. Homeless and alone. This was not the path she wanted, Em much perfered her optimistically pessimistic view on the world of love. For this reason, all her friends would come to Em for advice on the "love" that they were in of persuing. That is where her list of rules began, they are as follows:
1. Men are the persuers, girls if you are that needs to end.
2. Relationships should completely equal.
3. Life is full of status quo's and as much as we wish to break the cycle it can barely be done.
4. If things aren't okay there is a very small chance of them getting better. Like the bad outweighing the good.
5. And most importantly do what makes YOU happy.
She believed in a higher power controling her life so she lived with no worries and no cares Em took road trips when she felt like it some days she would talk her chocolate lab riley and other days her partner in crime, kate. Her favorite drive was the one she took weekly to the castle ruins 3 hours north of her home. Em always packed a lunch, her novel of the week, and a sketch pad to make a day trip of it. She often sketched life the way she preceived it to be when this castle was in use. But Em unlike most Would paint from the time of the destruction back instead of from prime to destruction. She viewed this place as the complete cycle of life in the desperation is now was Em viewed it as beautiful. The continuation of life through wildlife and all that comes after our prime years are gone. That simply life carries on. This brings us to Em getting out of her. Its tuesday her least favorite day of the week, so she is spending it doing what she loves. Riley quickly jumps out at this familiar site. But he rapidly stops, at the sight of someone else in this beloved spot. Quick side note on Em was she was always in a rush, and moved much to quickly. And Riley was the same. So Em quickly grabbed all of her articles for the day because it was an hour trail to her favorite spot overlooking the entire estate. Since there was someone else present at the ruins today she was forced to dig Rileys leash. Not that EM COULDNT trust him, it was just his friendly nature left others in fear because of his size.
We find her stepping out of her 1968 VW Buggie, into the dreariest of days. Days like this were Em's favorite. They brought her back to reality, and helped Em not take advantage of the small things in life, such as the sunshine. She believed a persons soul was what truely made the person. Others would view her as being so full of life and practically perfect, while she knew she was far from that she knew she was missing something. Although Em knew that she had something so much of the world around her was missing. Em regularly had men hitting on her and confessing their love, for she had this magnetic personality that attracted people to her. But Em knew that none of these were right for her, it all would have been to perfect and she had seen where so called perfection could lead you. Homeless and alone. This was not the path she wanted, Em much perfered her optimistically pessimistic view on the world of love. For this reason, all her friends would come to Em for advice on the "love" that they were in of persuing. That is where her list of rules began, they are as follows:
1. Men are the persuers, girls if you are that needs to end.
2. Relationships should completely equal.
3. Life is full of status quo's and as much as we wish to break the cycle it can barely be done.
4. If things aren't okay there is a very small chance of them getting better. Like the bad outweighing the good.
5. And most importantly do what makes YOU happy.
She believed in a higher power controling her life so she lived with no worries and no cares Em took road trips when she felt like it some days she would talk her chocolate lab riley and other days her partner in crime, kate. Her favorite drive was the one she took weekly to the castle ruins 3 hours north of her home. Em always packed a lunch, her novel of the week, and a sketch pad to make a day trip of it. She often sketched life the way she preceived it to be when this castle was in use. But Em unlike most Would paint from the time of the destruction back instead of from prime to destruction. She viewed this place as the complete cycle of life in the desperation is now was Em viewed it as beautiful. The continuation of life through wildlife and all that comes after our prime years are gone. That simply life carries on. This brings us to Em getting out of her. Its tuesday her least favorite day of the week, so she is spending it doing what she loves. Riley quickly jumps out at this familiar site. But he rapidly stops, at the sight of someone else in this beloved spot. Quick side note on Em was she was always in a rush, and moved much to quickly. And Riley was the same. So Em quickly grabbed all of her articles for the day because it was an hour trail to her favorite spot overlooking the entire estate. Since there was someone else present at the ruins today she was forced to dig Rileys leash. Not that EM COULDNT trust him, it was just his friendly nature left others in fear because of his size.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
July, I give you a warm welcome!
July 1st! 2010, half over! what! Lets look at me 2010 list and see what i've accomplished!
new friends - check
new job - check
better self - check
Im happy with the way this year is turning out! What will the next six months hold? Only Time will tell!
new friends - check
new job - check
better self - check
Im happy with the way this year is turning out! What will the next six months hold? Only Time will tell!
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