You shoot the moon and miss completely

Im in love with my world.......i love the sunshine! It warms my soul, and brings back all the good memories. I have a good outlook on everything that is going on.

By my birthday im going to be caught up and am going to have little to stress over, this is my list
-finishing applying to SUNY Orange (that was for John)
-flights book for our visit to our dad
-graduation stuff done
-finish my FASFA
-andwhatever else comes to mind

I've been working more and thas good! I got a raise and i didnt even know! that made me happy! Im glad its almost march, i had this terrible dream last night, it wasthe day before graduation and i didnt know if i was graduating it was terrible, then i was at camp and i didnt know if i was counseling this summer and it was terrible and my plans had dissappeared, and i was just so lost. thats not going to happen to me i have to have a backup plan.

Oh snow camp! It was wonderful! morgan and i did the zip-line, she was more worried about me than herself, Don Nauta was learning how to hook people up and he was shown how to do it on morgan but then he hooked me up by himself, and she was worried that he didnt do it right! it was funny. It was really nice to be able to spend time with everyone, but one of the nicest parts is coming home to your house, when you walk in the door and its time for rest. I think God is calling me to impact those around me and just be exactly who i am and nothing more, but who knows, I seem to be wrong alot.

I learned how to drive standard on thursday, that was fun, dave told me i was really good, when i drove home i peeled out right as i was pulling into the drive-way, that was a good laugh. So that was another check mark onthings i wanted to learn. Second month of 2009 is over, thats crazy, its been a pretty good year so far.

I need to start my term paper......and clean my room...

beautiful

everyday i get happier and happier, and it is amazing! thats just about it!

today was full of lovely's

flowers from my mommy!(they were given to her, but werent wanted)

Its my lei from Hawaii i just made it smaller

This day was the best i've had in a good while,
I woke up and 8:30,
not my usual 10:30 of school-less days.
The sun was shining and this made me incredibly happy
I re-arranged my room more today! and it was wonderful
Morgan and I had a wonderful talk about our futures
Planing it was amazing i cant wait!
I got incredible shoes and flowers today!!!
I also made jewelry!
Here are some pictures of my favorite things at the moment!

every scene was a sign we made out through there meanings

I am in love with my world at this point and time
I got my report card today
I was pleased with my grades, and i really dont care in they arent that great, and could be better
I dont care if my younger sister is more book smart, i told my family i was more "street-smart" and i got a laugh in return
I hate valentines day, i think its a poor excuse for a holiday, and its so commercialized
Who says we need one day to show someone we love them??
I am appreciating the dead presidents of our nation though, it gives us a lovely four day weekend
On to the weather, I am loving this weather, i find that my outlook and attitude has been much better, as of late, and i contribute that partly to the weather
Whenever the weather starts getting better i find the need to clean my room and re-arrange and find was to let more sunlight in, I guess i see spring as the time for all new things, which is exactly what spring is about, I wonder if this subconsciously has anything to do with the fact that my birthday is the first day of spring! I'm not exactly sure. Ive felt the need to blog more, im contributing this to the fact that i feel everything is moving so quickly i feel the need to document it all........oh well, all i know is that i am ever so happy, and there is not one thing that i can say it is from :)

Call me crazy if you've got it in you but these people don't seem to mind

It's monday, and i went to english again after three weeks, and i started reading this book while everyone else was watching this movie, and since my english teacher teaches lit of horror he said i should read stephen king, keep in mind ive never ready stephen king before in my life, but i really like this book, its not like all the other stuff i read, though i dont read garbage i find this to be a grown-up book, its called Thinner.
But we are going to start last week, so wednesday i go to school, and third period my lip starts swelling, by 5th period its still swelling i go to the nurse, so mom comes and gets me and takes me to urgent care, so I was having an allergic reaction to who knows what, so they give me an IV and am pumped with a steroid, benedryl and something else, so that was my event of this week, and i still dont know what im allergic too so im going to the allergist in about a week, because my wrists have been acting crazy and reacting too, and its not like im a person who changes what they use, and stuff very often, i like my routines they work for me, i find this rediculous how for a person who likes change so much and appreciates when things are differant i have such schedukles and make such routines for myself, and i get really frustrated when someone ruins my plans....... so the meds i was on for the allergic reaction, make me have moods swings and i hate it, because im being mean to everyone just cause i get frustrated easily, ill be happy when it's done. Saturday after work i went and saw He's just not that into you, with tab, morgan, dave and kara, and i loved it, it was absolutely fantastic, i had read the book, so now im rereading the book, and its transforming my life, and i love it. ummm....what else, OH, i have been loving this bit of warmer weather and the sun being out and the days being longer, i cant wait for spring next month! well really my birthday! Snow camp is in a week and a helf and that makes me really really happy. Oh last night i started thinking about camp and i got really sad and happy at the same time thinking about how great it is going to be and stuff but i really miss everyone there :( School is a piece of cake these days, except for chemistry, but i really just hate science....oh well this is exactly why i want to be a first grade teacher and i really dont have to know science, i need to know how to read, know basic math, shapes colors, that kinda thing and be super fun! Just about everyday i get more excited about next year and everything new! well i think im out of topics to talk about!

everytime i start to change my mind again it gets me back to where i was

wow, i feel like things are moving so quickly, before i know it, it's going to be spring break and time to visit my dad, then graduation, then summer and then i come home to start a completely new chapter in my life, im so excited for this journey though for once i wish i could slow time down just a buit, but back to right now. I learned to play bass, and it makes me proud of myself, New semester started today, im excited about new classes, but with my sister sick and the weather being the way it was, i decided to stay home, which i believe is a good choice, considering i have very little down time these days. so another thing of today, i decided im rethinking my life, and not going to let the pressures other people try to put on me effect me, because the way they think my life should go doesnt really matter. Oh another thing, i think i have a false view of people, in some people i see who i want them to be instead of who they are, so i mourn the lose of someone not in my life when i would never have been there if i hadnt had a false view of them, its complicated. if you havent realized it yet i think capital letters, sentence structure and punctuation go out the window when i speak, it comes out when im blogging, i realized i usually talk in one run on sentence which starts in one place and ends completely in another. Alexis and i were talking yesterday about being able to be someone else and see how we interact with people, i want to do this so badly, to bad i cant. i think thats all i will right for now, i work tonight :( but the hours are good :)