bad days

I hate mondays I hated today! 5 days!

:)

I hate rain! I didnt go to the gym yesterday and im disappointed in myself but Ill get over it, and drag my butt to the gym this morning before work! Today I am mending friendships because i believe its the right thing to do! for this i am proud of myself. My life is far to short to be mad or upset or whatever by something. So It started last night fixing these stupid issues i have with people and it will continue into today :) Im trying to work on feeling loved.

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Monday!!!!!!!!

One more awful intro to music class!

Sunday!

It's a sunday, and I will go to church, do some homework, study with sharon, I have two midterms this week. Im ready for spring break! 13 days, 9 more days of classes, 10 more days of work, 2 birthdays, 2 more days to hang out with Jackie on a thursday, 2 more paychecks, 14 more days at the gym.

I haven't seen the man i love in a month, but for once i'm not freaking out. I guess i am more sure of the permanent state of this relationship. And i feel a more sense of entirety. It's a beautiful thing. But again how can i not be completely ok with the fact that yes we didn't talk today, be he is touring with the indigo girls and playing to thousands every night and making his dreams come through. He loves me and no questioning is involved. And I get to see his beautiful self in 13 days!

march

in 3 lousy hours after im long asleep I have 20 days till my favorite day of the entire year!

MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

ALSO

THE DAY I SEE MY LOVE

Saturday

Its a saturday, and im ready to be alone, maybe even take another trip to the gym, and tan a bit. I need air, serious air. I need sun. I need warmth. I'll take it in the form of a text, or call, or hug, or anything. I just need dom i guess. Im kind of sick of people right now. And its time for a good cry i believe.

ugh what am i going to do with myself

i think i just need to curl up and watch a movie, not result to the gym for a second time today.

I might be working myself to hard, but im highly doubting that recently. I just need to soak in everything.

I am possibly listening to the best album i have ever heard, but this will be the case till the next one comes out! I am amazed by people sometimes.

I had a conversation with Sean Kelly last night, and I miss that child and all his miraculousness, don't tell him i said that. It will go to his head! hahahaha But he is a good child. I appreciate him in life and im not exactly sure what i would do without him in it.

Im tired, thats what a day will bring you.

My cat has to be put down this week. Im not really sure im going to take it well. I have never been that fond of him, but he is still our cat, and we have had him for 10 years. Thats a big deal.

God has been getting me through these days, i rely on him alot, or at least i try to. because i know by myself im an utter failure. and thats comforting knowing that i have someone who is everything for me, and will pick me up when i need it and even when i miss everyone He is there to pick me up and tell me it's ok.

I am taking some me time today, and this is good