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ok so im thinking, and thinking...............its 6:27 and i think ive been awake for nearly 2 and a half hours, but i never really remember going to sleep. I kept dreaming of tomorrow, of crazy notes i would get, or crazy experiences. hmmm i just dont know. so coming over tomorrow......kinda nervous i need tab to like him. i need to see my morg......i need to sort out. hmmm boy am i happy though. ive been happy, and will continue to be i believe for an unforeseeable period of time.

;)a

ahhhhhh.........

its like looking up on a sunny day, and seeing snowflakes falling down

HMMM back in my cycle, back to reevaluating, and seeing whats next. Its my entire life. I want to know whats next, I want to know what tomorrow has, but i truly do love the adventure.

Im in the business of breaking hearts, and i think its been done again....

whatever happened to this

I know what i know and i do what i do..................................and your a big fat hoe...............

soo hmmm this time and day, not sure how things are unfolding, i guess i just need to see how they pan out right? well let me pause that for a sec, let me pause everything for a sec and breath how does that sound........pretty damn well i would believe. My semester is almost over, which means i won't be killing myself next semester.....YES!

We'll see what is coming next though! there is always something lurking around a corner!

sugar and spice.......and all things nice?

hmmm so as of right now, couple hours ago, well maybe yesterday, I started to process of reevaluating, because its what i do. I talked to my madre today, and yesterday! how i love her to pieces! she completely completes me and gets me, even 1200 miles away! Good thing i see her in a little over 2 weeks!

I particularly happy! I can honestly and truly say that! Im going to stop being a person that just goes along with things too......thats not who i am.....i have a backbone, i was given it for a reason, and you better damn well know im going to use it. I guess thats where i am right now.

Today i was reminded that

- God uses weird people

- I will be my change

- I have a pretty freaking bright future

- Im going to chose the road i want, and stick to it, and my guns

So recently I've been able to create every excuse in the book not to hang out with someone, but then others i will always make room... It's just cause i dont really know what i want...I think. But i do know what i want. cause at the end of the day I want:

morals

fireworks

spark

like

innocence

passion

appreciation

ambition

hopes

dreams

grounding

fantastic

love

laughs

nkotbsb

i will be seeing them this summer