everytime i start to change my mind again it gets me back to where i was

wow, i feel like things are moving so quickly, before i know it, it's going to be spring break and time to visit my dad, then graduation, then summer and then i come home to start a completely new chapter in my life, im so excited for this journey though for once i wish i could slow time down just a buit, but back to right now. I learned to play bass, and it makes me proud of myself, New semester started today, im excited about new classes, but with my sister sick and the weather being the way it was, i decided to stay home, which i believe is a good choice, considering i have very little down time these days. so another thing of today, i decided im rethinking my life, and not going to let the pressures other people try to put on me effect me, because the way they think my life should go doesnt really matter. Oh another thing, i think i have a false view of people, in some people i see who i want them to be instead of who they are, so i mourn the lose of someone not in my life when i would never have been there if i hadnt had a false view of them, its complicated. if you havent realized it yet i think capital letters, sentence structure and punctuation go out the window when i speak, it comes out when im blogging, i realized i usually talk in one run on sentence which starts in one place and ends completely in another. Alexis and i were talking yesterday about being able to be someone else and see how we interact with people, i want to do this so badly, to bad i cant. i think thats all i will right for now, i work tonight :( but the hours are good :)