running, running, running

things dont slow down till april 15, thats over 2 weeks away
this week i work 25 hours and still i have school, and moms birthday, and homework, but ill be ok, then next thursday we leave, our dreaded trip is here, and i already cant wait to come home, how awful do i sound, no need to tell me i already know

Im sick, with allergies ugh....it makes me really tired

thats about it

happiness

I am incredibly happy.....
I wrote a song the other day, and i cant get it out of my head
it sums my entire feelings up
Im so close to the end of school i can taste it
One project and i just skate the rest of the way through, i cant wait
the 9th is coming up im not looking forward to it, but i am at the same time
thats how things are now

weekends and birthdays

I had a wonderful weekend! and I feel no different. I had a surprise party and it was amazing!!!!!

point me home

Third day i cried this week, i feel miserable, this should not be the case....... im sick of this, I miss people again. its like something is combating my great mood that has started. I saw my friend jon today and it made me really happy we had a lovely little chat. I miss seeing that kid more. I talked to my baby today, bryan the is, he said he was going to send me jelly beans, it made my day. Im sick of people and their stuff that put on me. Its my sisters birthday tomorrow, and i have to work, that makes me sad........ i want it to be the best ever. its crazy how old we are these days.

Ive quit procrastinating to some extent which is really great, 18 is saturday and it scares me i dont feel ready for it....oh well

I need sleep, hopefully tomorrow will be better

bad day

i had a terrible day, it started out good, i guess, it was hard because i rarely have bad days, it seemed that every encounter i had with people that arent my besties was terrible and left me feeling awful, i dont like this, this is my happy week not my bad day week, but tomorrow is st patricks day, one of my favorite holidays! I find it crazy that it is morgan and i's favorite holiday and we are irish twins and its in our birthday week! Lorrie comes friday!!!! I know secrets!!!

doubts

Things are crazy i am once again doubting all my summer plans........if i go to camp i have that amazing experience....if i stay home i get differant experiences. I dont remember a summer i didnt go to camp, but at the same time i want something different. If i got to camp i am not able to save as much money, if i stay home i have a ton more oppertunities so im not really sure.....



On to lighter things My birthday is saturday, and my bestie in the whole world is coming!!!!! im so excited, i purchesed my plane tickets for my trip to arkansas, which is good but im dreading it like always. I think im going to prom, i found a fantastic dress.... and once again i am changing my mind every 5 min on what to do, who to spend time with, oh do i want to date this person, no not at all, he is an ass, i love the weather! thats about it!

sunshine makes my soul alive

I just got the best news, that i have gotten in the past......lets just say long time!!!! One of my besties is probably coming for my birthday, and that is the best thing ever! it makes me want to cry how much i miss her and am so happy to see her.........:)

I've been listening to alot of the ONCE soundtrack, but have yet to see the movie, Dan bought the sheet music and is letting me borrow it, falling slowly is my favorite, it holds so much emotion and the emotion oozes out from the melodies, and it is incredible

little something i wrote:
Sunshine Makes my soul alive
this simple time, when nothing seems to matter
at least to me it doesnt
but hey this is my world

the living is easy
so they say
and baby i agree
nothing is sour
and when the rain comes
the drops are honey
everything i need
is at my fingertips