bit of a breakdown

I hate being alone! I hate that i know what i want i just dont know how to get it. I love someone. My best friend is leaving this week, and i wont get to say goodbye. I wont spend time with my mom till friday. I am still house sitting. I miss my bed. I miss my room. I miss hugs. I miss my mom and dave. I have a youth leaders meeting this wednesday. Im actually excited about that. I need some serious time to think and pray, i feel like my life is getting serious and i need to make some decisions.