happiness is a warm gun?

So i kinda miss shooting things, I miss feeling secure and in control but completely powerless all in the same breath....... My Security is in me and the ability to change when i feel, and not feeling like im letting someone down because of it! My best friend is home today! I WILL see him tomorrow. Im sitting next to my soulmate and wondering if someone will ever get me the way she does, because i sure as hell don't think so! Thats the pessimist in me...... But the Optimist, the 56% of me, thinks i will definitely find one! and I am happy, it leaks through my skin! I have been accomplishing things from this week!