summer

oh summer 2010........ You are fun of surprises, let me tell you that!

I was talking with Jack Jack today about our grown up lives.....and this is what we decided.
We are tired of being in the place we are. We also aren't exactly sure what we want to do. But we know what we want. We want to be happy..... to change the world, not with some huge career but in everyday situations.

Malificent will soon breath her last breath.

sun

I have sunburn! First I've had since last year! Beach was amazing! I will be starting the tattoo i want to get for my mom and sisters! we are getting matching foot tattoos before our morgy goes to school! so exciting!

Poker Face

So I had quite an amazing day! And im going to try something funky with this hair of mine! Something Wild and crazy!

cancelled

Dave cancelled the wedding yesterday. Once again why I have men half the time.

500+ days of summer

I plan on having something every day for this epic summer!

this week!

tuesday - finishing some crafty thigns
- gym
- sleep
- hanging with my fam fam!
Wednesday - hanging with malik
- others epicness
Thursday - gym
- sleep
- Morgans Awards dinner
Friday - BABYSISTER GRADUATES!
Saturday - Beaching it up!
Sunday - Random parties

Sometime in the near future we, meaning my sisters, mother and I will be getting cute foot tattoos. Yes you heard that right, morgan, getting inked.

change change change

Does it ever hit you that your world is about to change? That there isn't to much to do about it? That its just a part of growing up, and life? Can it stop for two seconds? Can I just breath? Can I stop dodging people? Can I stop running? Is it bad I want to settle into a normal routine? I want things that aren't driving me insane. I want to Breath. I want to sleep. I want to have something concrete. I want my change, just like always. But I don't. I don't want August to come. I won't know how to go about every normal thing. I'll have to find new friends. ahhhh. So I'm going to freeze time. I want to go back to being 5 maybe. I don't know.

I guess thats it. I just don't Know. Maybe I'm ok with that.

things turn out

So Im happy!!!!

Um I am making a list of how i think things should be/ how i feel!
-I believe there is one person for everyone
-I dont think you should settle till you find that one person
-Dont rush it......If its meant to be it will happen
-Dont settle with having to do all the work
-If there is a big age difference it wont work (rare exceptions)
-They are just not be that into you, if they are not talking to you
-If you have to sneak around it wont work
-Its not going to get better, its as good as it will ever be
-It takes forever to love and get to know someone, probably years

Just my view on a few things! For Steven's sake!

On a Day like today!

I feel loved today!

;]

God is good! This is what I have to say about today this weekend, this life, this month, this year this everything. I forget that without god none of this would exsist. and Im embracing each day as it comes and I am taking some risks

proud

My baby sister is done with highschool!she was a far greater success than myself but I dont care! The Next month it going to be insane. She graduates, my mom gets married, I face the fact that for once we arent children, and EVERYTHING changes hopefully! I will be saving all my money for a car! and My Word I am proud of my sister!!!!

status quo

Im finding that everything is life is based on a status quo, although many times people try and break out of those, they are still ever present. Yesterday I was discussing with someone how she feels that if you break up with someone and they said they still want to be friends and you both want that you should still be able to, but this status quo called life doesn't allow that. She doesn't feel like all that awkwardness needs to be there,as she put it "i saw him naked, its not like he doesn't know me now." But thats the whole thing in order to mask whatever it is that happened one has must fake this whole front titled "Since you know everything about me, and know how to hurt me, I'm never going to even pretend to let you close to me" it happens all the time, like people saying something is worse than it actually is after the fact. They feel the need to bring up every bad situation and issue of an event in order to keep them from it.

Are you a player or do you get played? This is one of the big things when dealing with a relationship, even friendships. Player's keep their options open and are not quick to settle things into stone, while The Played take and settle and make something real while it was never meant to be that. The Played often read to far into things. As being someone who has been on both sides of the spectrum neither is accurate. The player doesnt see others as actual breathing feeling people, often times this is stunted by being played themselves. The played view others as being on a pedestal and put what they want before themselves. Both are twisted and severely insecure.

precious

oh pretty pretty things