Newness

New things scare me at times, but its the thing i absolutely want the most. I see my life opening up and becoming completely new, and its something I've always wanted but at the same time it makes me want to curl up in my bed and cry. Tomorrow 2009, will be my year, I can feel it. Maybe Im expecting to much but i doubt it, I have the feeling of this is the year i will prove myself, but I have nothing i need to prove. Maybe this is me proving things to myself. I have decided that I am going to stop this stupid procrastinating that I do, i hate it. I feel like someone looking at my life from the outside, they couldnt tell that i have passion about so many things and i really want to change the world, even if that is just my little slice of it, but I'm not limiting myself to just changing my piece of the world i want to change it all. I think that is something i will never be able to fully explain my passion for the world. I started to question my plans, and it scared me, I quess thats just a part of life right. Back to this being my year, I feel like I'm begining a whole new chapter, and its incredible, but scary, I feel like I'm making friends now that aren't just superficial,and years from now we might still be friends. I'm happy, and really anticipating everything. This year was incredible and went by so fast, I made amazing friends, had some really life changing experiences, that i wouldnt change for the world. Well for now im going