hmmmmmmmm

So today was good and awful all in the same breath. I cried for a good 15 min, and it helps a little, but I still feel raw. Like something has been ripped and just left hanging there. But I just want him to tell me, but at the same time I want to be able to control my reaction, so this way I can. I am praying for him so much! Because no matter what he is my same joey, and so wonderful, but something is eating him from the inside out, and I just dont want to see someone i love being eaten alive.

Besides that, I had a really awesome day. And another day of no insecurities. And I think he feels the same way. From what I got from my momma, was that he was just as worried as I was! Too bad hes going to see his great grandparents this weekend :/
Lame......But he loves Jesus soo much and its really really awesome!

Halloween costume is a go!! ;] im keeping this one a secret! hehe