It's really funny to me to read old blogs and see how dilusional I was. I think back and shake my head at this little kid pretending to be grown I'm a mix of emotions this week. I saw my life get threatened and stability shook. I got infuriatingly mad and hurt. But tomorrow I get to go on my first real vacation with my matt. I'm so excited to visit ny, it still holds such of my heart. I can't wait to just walk around my neighborhood and think. Or sit on by back porch late and just talk. I can't wait to show that part of my life to matt. I'm excited. I can't sleep!