Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Two Ooohhhh Eleven

My 2011 new years list - in all its explanations

- LOVE
I dated a really nice guy, that should have stayed as just friends. I think I almost fell back in love with someone I shouldn't have.
- laughs
A ton of laughs at everything!
- friends
Made the greatest new friends with my move! Only THE BEST FRIEND
- stupid decisions
6 whole months of stupid decisions
- fantastic decisions
I moved!
- direction
I think I found it
- hope
Hope in God
- dreams
I still have crazy ones
- education
I learned some neat things, about myself too
- hot boys
yeahhhh I like one now
- boys that aren't hot
lets not talk about those
- learning experiences
Isn't life full of them?
- cute kids
I worked with some awesome kiddies! That I still miss. I get to see Bry all the time!
- family
I'm around my fam all the time!
- God
I feel a ton closer to God! He's doing great things in my life!
- growing
I am growing a ton closer to God, and I'm growing closer to people!
- equality
I freakin' hate racism, so that is not working so well.
- open mindedness
I'm pretty open minded
- acceptance
- unique
I believe in pretty unique still!
- wholly
- CHANGE
There is always change


It was a pretty Fantastic year!

Monday, December 26, 2011

Day

Had a super fantastic day!!! I hung out with my favorite boy, and the more time I spend with him the more I care for him. I think he is really awesome. He got me a real cute scarf and a totally precious bracelet. It will seriously get worn all the time!

I love my christmas presents. I seriously feel blessed by those in my life!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

i hate being patient

Sunday, December 11, 2011

square one my slate is clean

when I lay my cards out on the table, all of them, every last one. And I'm met with an "ok" and my heart instantly drops. And all I need to know is where I stand. I just need to hear a yes or no. Feeling the same as you did before? Completely unsure? Never entertaining the thought? What does that mean? You walk me to my car. You take me to dinner. Your Aunt tells me "that's why we are such a great couple." But we haven't been that for months. Your Grandma asking if I'm coming to christmas at your great grandparents. Your mom saying just listen to me. Buying a coat I say looks cute on you. In your arms I feel safe.
What am I supposed to do exactly? Well here is the thing.....I don't have someone else barking up my tree, and honestly I don't want someone else. Before I let PMS ruin how I viewed you. And Joey coming in a giving me what you weren't giving me. Which was exactly what I didn't need. That was me slipping back into my old ways. So I was confused. But I still cared. And I still do care. And honestly You are great! Your so sweet to me, and really care about those around you. And You really love God. And you work pretty hard. You really don't ask for things to be handed to you. Honestly My heart could be one hundred percent into this. And I hate myself for saying it. I honestly could cry right now because I just wanna know how you feel. And I haven't felt this way in a long time. And the last time I felt like this my heart was torn to pieces. But Your a good man. And everyone around sees that. My mom knows this whole thing, and She sees how I'm being vulnerable, and she thinks you wont hurt me. But this is a risk for me. Considering in already in this. My personality is either in or out, and baby I'm in. But if I'm hurt, oh well, because what is life if you don't take any chances. And If I'm stuck waiting oh well, I'll move on. But if something wonderful comes out of this it was so worth it.
I just pray I'm not stuck not knowing for long, I don't want to endure this insecurity for long. It doesn't work to well for me.

Monday, December 5, 2011

ever feel like your in a constant state of thought. That your looking for something you just cant seem to find? i guess i know exactly what im looking for

Saturday, November 26, 2011

run,run,run....run right into you

Thanksgiving....fantastic! I completely love my family, even though they are insane and nosy. I adore Bryan, still to this day he is my all-time favorite kid. His imagination is freakin fantastic! Best kid i know! <3 my prayers are for real with my aunt though she needs jesus so bad!! its like one thing after another with that lady. I am growing to love my dad and his side of the family a little more each time im around them! And I have the cutest little cousin, for real, rachel is wonderful!

Im going to be Auntie Meg!! of course no blood relation but still!!! WOOFREAKINGHOO!!!

So Im trying a new chruch tomorrow, Morg and I can't decide on one we like, and we just need to jump in and get involved somewhere.

Friday, November 18, 2011

stupid cycles

I love when you get smacked upside the face with something......its great..... And I love when I see my mistakes staring so blatantly back in my face. I guess thats what needs to happen to break me of stupid cycles.

Then stupid boy in texas has to go and tell me he misses me, and can't wait to see me and that he wont forget me. Way to break that open again......... stupid cycles.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

a fault ive realized i just in head first way to quick

Saturday, November 5, 2011

when the world around you is falling apart, and you dont know what to do, pick your shit up, stop feeling sorry for yourself and carry on.




You know I;ve never been in a situation where i recognize someone criticizing someone else for their own faults. I have when people have their nose so far up in others peoples business, and dont let someone speak for them selves, or voice all their problems.....what in the freaking world makes people think thats ok. If you criticize someone for basically not having a pair, or appreciating someone you love as a great and freaking awesome person, how can you then do the exact same thing??? And worry when someone is using someone and stringing them along, and you were getting ready to do that same thing????? Sometimes people frustrate me a whole whole lot!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

I like when people have an issue with me they just come right out and say it!

Friday, October 21, 2011

I need to love single life right??? well im not

Monday, October 10, 2011

ughhhh im torn

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Ohhh its done.

Grow up and be a fucking Man. Grow a pair

Friday, October 7, 2011

friday

Im really excited for tomorrow.
Ever get that feeling that something wonderful will happen??? Thats what I feel. But I dont wanna overthink this and then nothing happens, I just cant live with disappointment.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

Sunday night blues........

I hate the Sunday night blues, even if it was an awesome weekend! :)
Run down of events
Friday i kinda started questioning my whole boy thing (pretty much like i always do) I always need clarity, its a little insane. but then I just flat out asked and oh guess what, it got a tad better. But then Party Friday night! I seriously love being around people that i can be completely myself with it is truly wonderful. And Drama always happens, which is kinda funny too. Ryan shows up. :) You know the thing about that is i love seeing him yes, but sometimes i get picked on about it soo terribly much. Can people just keep there mouths shut about meeting the family?? Like really fuck, its my life not yours, did i even want you to know my business probably not, and you dont have to shout it from the rooftops ok. Well that was my friday, and oh i went shopping with andrea and that was supper fun too.
Saturday......sooo many people! and I seriously had a blast! why was i worried still really not sure. But Everyone was super nice! And Ryan and I got to talk more, about whatever this is between us. Sitting on the swing just sitting there and talking about us, and my morgy and fam and his fam one of the highlights of this weekend, Also when brett, my 5 yr-old boyfriend comes up to me and asks are you married to him(ryan) seriously precious, and when i gave him a hug good bye and he holds his face up and says do i get a kiss. I love babies. And just standing the in the driveway for 30 min just talking. Best hug ive ever had. <3 and i turned my ring
ssoooo...that brings us to today....Im so tired, ive run myself this weekend. And i wish i could have hung out tonight, but there is everything for a reason. Hmmmmmm I thank God for days like this and weekends like this! Nothing makes me feel better!
Good night

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Whole family next weekend.......what???
Saw him twice this weekend, when i didnt think i would see him at all......yay
liking my hair..........cute
being a pain........i love it
keeping secrets...........ohh fun

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

So I still havent heard from joey about his doc appointments today, and that makes me a little nervous and sad. I'm allowed to feel that right??? Ugh stupid stupid shit! Stupid stupid cancer. Things like that arent supposed to affect people I love.

On a happy note! I love being able to talk to a bog about Jesus. Its pretty sweet that we can seriously joke and be hateful, and be serious too!

Monday, September 19, 2011

hmmmmmmmm

So today was good and awful all in the same breath. I cried for a good 15 min, and it helps a little, but I still feel raw. Like something has been ripped and just left hanging there. But I just want him to tell me, but at the same time I want to be able to control my reaction, so this way I can. I am praying for him so much! Because no matter what he is my same joey, and so wonderful, but something is eating him from the inside out, and I just dont want to see someone i love being eaten alive.

Besides that, I had a really awesome day. And another day of no insecurities. And I think he feels the same way. From what I got from my momma, was that he was just as worried as I was! Too bad hes going to see his great grandparents this weekend :/
Lame......But he loves Jesus soo much and its really really awesome!

Halloween costume is a go!! ;] im keeping this one a secret! hehe

Sunday, September 18, 2011

;D

well, well, well, look at that. Another week of work starts, this sucks! Can't we go straight to it being the weekend again please? What if I beg? Nope, that won't help! I guess I should just suck it up.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

When I'm weak, then I am strong



So Today was a ton of fun. And my insecurities are washed clear. I like a boy, and like this was about forever ago, thats a big deal. Well this kind of like is. Its not superficial, its deeper than that. The last time I've felt If I was a girl that liked people purely on looks, well thank Heaven I'm not and never have been or never will. It makes people incredibly shallow, and I would rather think of myself as the opposite of that. But I think this boy is so very cute, but Morgan doesn't but when was the last time we agreed on someones cuteness? Oh, Never. He's so funny, and nice, and smart. BLAH BLAH BLAH....... But his grandma was asking my mom if I really did like him, and his Aunt was sending pictures of us to his mom......hmmmmmmm. Sounds lke someone besides us is concocting a love potion.



What am I going to be for Halloween???? Oh the complexities of life. haha Teapot, or Superwoman, to my clark kent. Or something fabulous? hmmm

So It's my babys birthday tomorrow, He's going to be 8. I love that kid more than just about anything! And if I could i would buy him cloths and toys and take him places, and have things be like old times. I can't do that though, thats favoritism.


In Goshen there is a 8 yr old kid thats been missing since 5 my time. He's Autistic and non-verbal. It's kinda breaking my heart. Im just praying a lot for this boy and his family and for God to bring him home safely. Its just scary though. And Infuriating at the same time. What could his family be thinking, or did they let this/cause it. And if that didn't how could they let him out of their sight? This is a kid, and special needs on top of that. They are truly a treasure. This brings to mind the fragility of life.

Friday, September 16, 2011

dark blue, dark blue, have you ever been alone in a crowded room

I got to see a phlebectomy today. Its small incisions made in the leg, and the surgeon uses a crochet hook type tool and tiny plyers and pulls the varicose vein out and cuts part of it, and she pulls out tiny clots. The patients awake the whole time too. Insane
I literally feel like i did nothing today.

I get off work at three on fridays, and i feel like its a mini vacation! and It's wonderful! I went and bought beads!! and visited Morgan and Joey at work. And I felt really insecure today, and I really hate that feeling, and its not about my looks or personality. Its about something else. I get this feeling that I'm on the verge of really Fucking things up. And then I find out that someone I really appreciate in my life, thinks I'm awesome. And It;s a nice ego boost that I'm sure I don't need.

I feel like I am closer and farther away from the person I always wanted to be. Well, I shouldn't say farther away, I just never pictured some of the things I have happening in my life. It really is exciting though. I talk my self out of things I shouldn't be feeling a lot easier now, and I think I'm using my head more in some areas, and in others my heart just takes a leap and lands at the bottom of the ocean.

As for other matters not pertaining to the heart, there aren't any, I really pretty much feel everything. Its all part of my charm.

Thursday, September 15, 2011

this is for you, cause I know you'll check it.

Thursday, September 1, 2011

so...

Life. Jobs. Family. Parents. Steps. Sisters. cousins. Babies. Future. House. Bed. Shower. Kitchen. Cookies. Pasta. Vegetables. Gardens. Flowers. Honey bees. Honey. Hives. Allergic reactions. Hospitals. Veins. Work. Craziness. Clumsyness. Trippin'. Memories. Dreams. Nightmares. Insomnia. Hitting my Head. Life altering.

Its kind of funny how everything circles around in my head. and I feel like im on the verge of something life alternating. And Sometimes I know its coming and sometimes I don't know that it is. I'm not sure if I always want to know, or i should say suspect. aAnd I'm not sure what kind of life alternating thing will be happening. I guess anything could be life alternating. A trip to work, or to the Gym, or to wal-mart, or really anything that is happening. A trip to the gas station, maybe i should go now. I'm just kidding. We will see what happens right???

Saturday, August 20, 2011

So these days for me blogging is just me getting out and voicing what im feeling



and Gods Grace is so enough, and thats what im living in. And i need to forgive myself. huge step and acknowledge that I cant do anything on my own.

Saturday, August 13, 2011

so its great to be in a good place! when you realize all the stupid decisions that you made, and then with Gods grace you can some how move past it. I've been thinking about addicts alot recently, cause i was reading a book about them. and With addiction you wake up each day and ask god to get you through it because thats the only way you will not fall into temptation. And with sin no matter what it is it is the same. You have to wake up and ask god to get your through because he is your strength and nothing else can help you stay strong.

So thats where I am. I made another huge step. and I'm still trying to not care hundreds and thousands of miles away. Because it doesnt matter. God has turned this into my life and i'm going to make the freakin' best of it yet. I know God has huge plans for me. And Im praying for patience to wait on the good that He is going to bring.

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Sometimes life sucks, well people around you hurt people you love, and that is what sucks. But then sometimes You get love from someone and that makes it all better. and sometimes you feel like you've been dealt a low blow, but then you realize how much better off you are and its all ok! and im thanking god for what i have tonight!

Monday, August 1, 2011

SOOOOOOOO......life is pretty fucking fantastic!!!! :)

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Its a beautiful think when you wake up one day and you realize your life is fucking fabulous!

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

I thank God for everything in my life, every last thing. Cause boy is this a great life! I am feeling really blessed today!

Monday, July 4, 2011

hmmm :) im happy

Something i've recently come to realize I shouldnt care anymore whats happening 1250 miles away. and Im not going to!

Thursday, June 30, 2011

I feel like things are looking up.

Im sorry to all my friends who i didnt say a legit goodbye to. But you know i love you all in your own way. its easier this way anyway. I feel like nothing is permanent and if we are meant to be our paths will cross again. and for some of you its good our paths are ending. i say that with a ton of love. my hearts broken and being sewn back together all in the same second. so this is my fairwell.

my last full day in NY tomorrow! <3

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

God is good all the time

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Really Really Happy

Im really happy to move!!! like seriously i dont think i could be happier!

Friday, June 24, 2011

ohhhhh stressssssssss


it will all be over soon!

Sunday, June 19, 2011

its always the ones that dont show you enough that you want.....


Side Note: 6 years today my life changed......its been good <3

other side note: FUCK TODAY.......fathers day sucks ass
boys and their cars, soo sexy......
being told your the girl that knows the most about cars.....


OH Summer nights <3

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

I really really love being drunk! I love love love the swimmy head feeling.........

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

crazy crazy crazy

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I seriously hate being a sick!!!!

But i have a nice new car <3 YAY

Sunday, June 5, 2011

this day forward............im quiting men.......till i find one who actually appreciates me.............well basically.....one who doesnt want in my pants.......and actually likes my mind and how funny i am..........is that too much to ask????? I sure as hell hope not.......i just need to chill these hormones.......GOSH.....it could be worse.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

hmmmmmm.........im good

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

last day of may..............what should i do???

Monday, May 30, 2011

Its a breath of fresh air when things come full circle, and you suddenly feel strongly again about everything that is important

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

start spreading the news

I'm Leaving today......................

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Thursday, May 19, 2011

possibly the greatest afternoon ever

He's Just not that into you!

Its so making my life better, yet again!


I don't want to be "sort of dating" someone. I don't want to be "kinda hanging out" with someone. I don't want to spend a lot of energy suppressing my feelings so I appear uninvolved. I want to be involved. I want to be sleeping with someone I know I'll see again because they've already demonstrated to me that they're trustworthy and honorable -- and into me


Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who just broke up with you. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.


Cut your losses and don't waste your time . Why stay in some weird dating limbo when you can move on to what will surely be better territory? Don't want to hear it? Fine. Here's the answer you're looking for, "Hang in there, baby. He's not the loser everybody's telling you he is. If you wait and keep your mouth shut and call at exactly the right time and anticipate his moods and have no expectations about communication or your own sexual needs, you can have him!" But please don't be surprised if he dumps you or continues to drag you through a completely unsatisfying relationship

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Remember my sentimental friend, you will be judged not by how much you love, but by how much you are loved.-Wizard of Oz

That's why they call them crushes. If they were easy, they'd call them something else -Sixteen Candles

If you don't have anything you don't have anything to lose. - Sixteen Candles

We're all pretty bizarre, some of us are just better at hiding it than others. - Breakfast Club

books i need to read

Life of Pi
Catch-22




ill figure out others
is it so bad that im ready for the next chapter!!!!

Morg restarts tomorrow, and i want to too! One year ill be ready! I just wanna graduate and be done!

But thats ok!!!!


SUMMER 11

Please keep going like a bang you have been wonderful!

Monday, May 16, 2011

oh i like cute boys, with cute things to say.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

People sometimes piss me off
I love a good wedding! and I really love dressing up! I love seeing everyone else dressed up to! and I really really love dancing! Even if the day after i feel like i was hit with a huge bag of 10 lb bricks

I dont want my momma to leave! And i really hate that morgy is leaving! and Im super glad that its summer! and im so glad that in a year im going to be done with school! and on to such bigger and better things!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I love my Momma being home!
I think i did a bangin ass job on a final this morning!
My summer has officially began!
2011 is turning out to be f*cking amazing!
I love, just about a lot
I laugh, way to loud
I smile, all the time
I am happy!
I am at peace!!!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Dun..dun...dun....

Can we just talk about how much i love my life.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


Magic was achieved today!!!!



In life i like when things turn out great. I really appreciate when the people around me are happy. It rubs off, and makes my mood just that much better. I also really really like when people dont hate me. This week I've had either four relationships rekindled, and/or apologies made. I like the feeling that things are good with people. I think relationships with the people around me i find to be most important. I hate leaving things on a bad note. I think thats why i try so hard for validation, affirmation, and approve. Yep thats right the narcissistic person that i am needs it. And i think that slightly disappoints me. I expect un-human things from just humans. At least i realize my faults right? Oh well, something else to work on.




Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Oh summer 2011

You are seriously welcomed, and next Thursday I'll be done! With only one year left im so very happy. This summer is going to be big, even though im spending the majority of it working.
so this summer i plan on

- getting my hair cut/dyed into something super fun
- going to the beach alot
- going to MOMA
- Tim McGraw
- hanging out with friends old and new
- making lots of things
- cooking
<3 and whatever else crosses my mind

Sunday, May 1, 2011

April showers, please bring May flowers

This month will be far be a great one! I am oh so very happy, and i think this month will be charming!
run down for the month
-Friday Momma comes
-Morgy comes for the weekend too
-wednesday after that is my final for psych
-Sat the 14th is a wedding
- My summer begins!!!
-week after that Momma leaves
-Morgy moves the 20th :(

<3

"It's hot outside let me go swimming in your eyes, we been running for awhile why don't you lay down, I'll make you smile. I could never ask for anything better than this. It's just tequila and the beach, thats why its salty when we kiss."
I love when the weather is nice! it makes my soul so happy and i feel so alive.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

im starting to really hate insomnia when i actually want to sleep.

oh life as i know it! I can't wait to see my momma next week!!! Im getting something crazy and funky done with my hair next week! WOOTWOOT

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

to be happy

mmmmm I need sleep haha

I was so damn productive today, I could seriously make the best housewife! I believe.

I will breath a sigh of relief in the morning when this day is behind me, it was very trying. I hate feeling like i was lied to. ugh whatever bitches!



on a totally different note
<3 or
that is the question
I hate when your heart feels a flippy floppy, and suddenly everything is a reminder. I decided i like in What could have beens? i think thats better than regrets. regrets in my opinion are - wishing you could take back and action
Could have beens - wishing and dreaming for the best haha

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Come close and listen to the story

It's nice when you have answers,but not having them is killer. Because then you left with just your imagination, and they start running wild. What could of been a small story turns into something about a dinosaur and an octopus. ugh. haha. But I'm all good im ready to spring back and put this behind me.

Things I believe
I am hott
I am hilarious
I am the real deal
I am dreadfully honest
I can be a bit selfish (who said they needed to be good)
I am a bit self-centered
I love my Friends
I am Smart
I am oblivious, at times
I am silly
I am clumsy
I am a hurricane
I am saved
I am loved beyond words
I am not defined by words
I am me <3 Flaws and every last piece

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Cause when your minds made up

ugh what to do?



man this seriously sucks

Friday, April 22, 2011

Oh earth day!


I have two more semesters then im dont with my associates!!!!!!!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

ughhh ever have those moods! Im in one! and its that time i wish i could just cry. i think the crying would be to really just get my way. ugh shitty shitty shitty...........f f f f f f f f f f f f ffffffffffiiiinnnnngggggg shit! ok i just need to calm down. I just need to stop being selfish and grow up.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

I love when school learning plays into real life

Sunday, April 17, 2011

why do i decide to kill my lungs, and kill my chest! i then feel like i have a fever for the rest of the day!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Peoples stupidity and selfishness is mind blowing at times. it truly kills me.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

hmmmmm

i need a deep breath and chillax

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

;]

Im happy and i think its cause im doing the right thing in life! like within the past month i feel like good this are just happening@ and i said this was going to be my year but hey who knew!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Im dying for a great fro!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

gray, quiet, and tired and mean

i had a lovely week, and an even better weekend. I am totally amped to go into this next week, im pretty damn sure im going to stomp it and beat this week head on.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

You may say I'm a dreamer......

So today was a success. Really, my life is just a success!

Replay the past few weeks, well the Last month.

I questioned my entire life past, changed my life path, was in Limbo, and got my awesome job! I had a rockin' birthday, that i still kinda don't feel like is over! and I am insanely, and consumingly happy!! ;]

I had finger prints and a drug test done today. A first for the drug test....i dont much like the peeing in the cup shiz.


Its my mommas birthday tomorrow!!! i wish i could see her! but she will just get my card! filled with glitter!! but she seriously amazes me sometimes, cause she is so freakin' awesome!! i couldn't ask for a better madre

Saturday, March 26, 2011

;]

mmmmm im happy!!!

I got pretty flowers yesterday, from a very sweet and cute boy!

Today will be a good day! :)

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

happiness is a warm gun

;D

i am insanely happy.........

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Well well well, that first date was pretty fantastic if i do say so myself!

Friday, March 18, 2011

210

ummmmmm sooo i think i like a boy. maybe alot. or maybe i just think he is super sexy. maybe its just his beard.

Its the little things!
<3

ahh i love that fluttery feeling!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

11

Eleven is my number today.
11 firsts
11 days

In the next 11 days i wish to make the biggest change possible. I can to make up on that lovely day and restart my life, I plan on waking up and thinking that everyday for the rest of my life.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

fresh foot forward

Starting today I am going to try hard at everything. I am going to make more of an effort to be a good friend, and person. I feel like i get way way way to caught up in me and whats happening in my life. I am so freaking inward focused that im making myself go insane. I look at my life and wonder where my meaning is i guess.
Ever have someone insult you so badly it makes you question your whole entire self and the system you have set up.
I am a picky person, which isnt always a good thing i admit this. but at the same time im not nearly picky enough. ugh i guess i just took and ego blow.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

:(

really hates being sick.... especially when i pass out at the grocery store and tab wont let me drive.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Im thinking a new car is in my future!!!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

hmm....

balls in your court babe.
dont leave me hanging forever
i can't wait that long

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

ishhh

im so over this snow %hit!

Sunday, January 16, 2011

:]

I am ready for the regularity of life to resume!

Saturday, January 15, 2011

venting

vent vent vent..........vent

Monday, January 3, 2011

ohhhhhh

As once again another year draws to a close.......i reflect on my past year and all that has happened. I've made some terriffic friend i dont get to see nearly enough, Ive reconnected with others, Ive broken hearts, had mine damaged. Ive had some wonderful experiences, some i wish i would have done differently, but thats life. I've ended this year much differently than it began.
I began last year on the brink of change, or so i thought, but really i was in the midst of stupidity. But that happens too. I had my eyes shut to the things around me, I feel like i now have them open to the things going on around me. Im ready and waiting for whatever happens to be next. This year has brought about Independence, dependence, love, pain, hurt, happiness, joy, surprise, expectations, rules, fun, disappointment....you name it. Above all else CHANGE was brought about.
So as a new year dawns, I have high hopes and expectations for this year, not unlike every year before.
- LOVE
- laughs
- friends
- stupid decisions
- fantastic decisions
- direction
- hope
- dreams
- education
- hot boys
- boys that aren't hot
- learning experiences
- cute kids
- family
- God
- growing
- equality
- open mindedness
- acceptance
- unique
- wholly
- CHANGE